It All Comes Down to This

This morning is just so beautiful. I hope the day is deserving of such a gorgeous sky.

How is it possible that I could let certain situations with people in my life become so far gone? I make the same mistake over and over….I sit back and let myself continually get pushed aside by the people that I love. I don’t address it. I reach my breaking point. And then I lash out. It seems like at some point it should finally occur to me that this method is terribly flawed and has tear jerking consequences. I wish that I could just communicate. People will only do to you what you are allowing. Why do I assume that people can read my mind and know what upsets me? I make no sense. Yet I do have common sense that I don’t always utilize. I don’t want to be one of these miserable people who drives everyone I’ve ever cared about away because I bottle up my feelings and then explode on people. I don’t want to be emotionally disconnected. I don’t want to be absent.